You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing. Psalm 30:11
Hi Beautiful! My name is BoYee and I am God's Ballerina! I cannot help but to dance for the Lord because He truly has turned my mourning into joyful dancing.
It still blows my mind how much LOVE JOY AND PEACE I get to experience every single day of my life now.
And I give God all the glory for the OVERFLOW OF LOVE that is in my life.
I get abundant love in my life from God; He is my number One. I get abundant love from myself. Hallelujah! I no longer feel guilty for making my needs and desires a priority now. I get abundant love from my sweet husband. We already celebrated our 4 year anniversary on October 11th, and yet he is insisting on celebrating for two full weeks (and I am happy to receive that)! I get abundant love from our 5 children; and by five children, I mean our two cats and three chickens of course! I get to have abundant love from my precious family and amazing friends; I usually pray with at least 5 girlfriends a day! I get abundant love from my mentors and teachers; my teachers often tell me I am very teachable and all are so impressed with my willingness to do whatever it takes to get better. And last but certainly not the least, I get love from my grateful clients and students. I cannot begin to tell you how rewarding it is to witness my clients through my life coaching business transform before my very eyes and go from feeling hopeless to empowered.
A couple more fun facts:
I get to live in a cute country home on a beautiful 40-acre ranch in California with my husband and our animal children. And I have to tell you, I get to experience the most glorious sunsets in the evenings!
I get invited to speak and share my testimonial and dance worship dance at churches and Christian events all around the country.
I get to spend several hours a day immersed in personal development, diligently reflecting on and correcting and growing my character. I strive to be the best steward I can be of the relationships, health, money, brain, and heart God has blessed me with. I believe in being rigorously honest on where I fall short and also by speaking life over myself and expecting miracles to happen. And they do, miracles happen very often in my life. In fact, I see my whole life as a miracle.
When people get to know me, they are often surprised to find out that I experienced 8 years of molestation and rape as a child by a serial pedophile - my stepfather, who managed to kick my mother out of our house so he had full reign to do whatever he wanted with me. He often exploited my gift of dance to satisfy his lust hunger. My soul died a little more each time I had to perform another sensual dance as he threatened me to do for him as a child.
When people get to know me, they are often surprised to find out that when I ran away from home at age 19, I got deeply involved in New Age practices, including Reiki healing. As I became more skilled at Reiki, I often could feel other people's pain in their bodies even if they were on the other side of the globe. I became quite an impressive "healer" in my own eyes and became prideful about my abilities. I believed I was a goddess and even lived at a yoga ashram for a couple of years.
When people get to know me, they are often surprised that I intentionally tried to talk Christians out of their faith during my Reiki sessions on them. I would passionately tell them they didn't need Jesus. They didn't need a crutch. They could become their own healer. I used to think Christians were the weakest and stupidest people on the planet. I did not believe in God. I mocked God. I wanted to be my own god. I had so much pride.
The biggest turning point in my life was in the Winter of 2017 when I was living at the yoga ashram. Back then, I did not take naps. I was a vegan ballerina and had a ton of energy. I felt happy in a new relationship I was in with a boyfriend. I was happy I was growing a YouTube channel with about 8,000 subscribers where I taught people how to be "Happy, Healthy, and Free with BoYee" My life felt perfect to me back then! I definitely did not feel depressed.
Then seemingly out of nowhere, I was attacked demonically around the same time in the afternoon for 3 consecutive days.
This evil spirit was telling me internally to kill myself. I was alarmed because I found myself truly considering to commit suicide, which was not like me. I didn't feel like I had it in me to stay alive for my family, friends, boyfriend, or YouTuber viewers. I didn't know what to do.
The first day I was attacked and felt paralyzed in my bed, I knew immediately that my "Reiki powers" had no authority over that evil presence. I KNEW deep in my heart that if I were to die, I would go straight to hell.
The next day, I felt compelled to grab an old 12-step book I had in my closet and put it on my nightstand. I stopped reading that book many years ago because I couldn't do Step 2, so I had dropped out of that program. Then I was demonically attacked and paralyzed again just like the day before. When I was able to move again, I opened that thick book to a random page, and to my disbelief, I happened to open the book to Step 2, believe in God, the Step I refused to take in the past. I slammed the book closed and said to myself, "No, I do NOT believe in God!"
The third day, I was attacked and paralyzed again. The fear of dying and going to hell was unbearable. This time, I just couldn't take it anymore. I thought to myself, "I've already tried praying to Krishna, Buddha, the Mother, Sri Aurobindo, Quan Yin, Ganesha, the Universe, the rocks, the moon, the stars, who's left?" Then I realized that I had never tried Jesus. I felt embarrassed because I thought, "Well I don't even know how to pray to Jesus." So I just muttered His name, "Jesus" and INSTANTLY the demon vanished, I felt overwhelming peace flood through my body and the room and I KNEW JESUS WAS REAL.
My first thought was, "I must get baptized!" Then my next thought was, "Oh my goodness, I think I am the ONLY new ager in the world who came to Jesus Christ." Little did I know at the time, New Agers have been coming to Christ in droves. I definitely was not the only one. I didn't care either way. I knew Jesus was real in that moment and I was given the gift of faith.
I was a naive infant Christian . I innocently believed, "Welp, life should be pretty easy from this point forward since I have God now." Boy oh boy, was I wrong! I got married a little less than a year after becoming a Christian. I didn't realize getting married would bring up all my unresolved childhood trauma. I got married to a wonderful man, but I didn't know how to be a wonderful wife. So with my own hands, I nearly destroyed my marriage by being disrespectful, nagging, controlling, and condemning beyond measure.
But through tuning into the will of God and my willingness to change my behavior; I got under the wings of wise counsel and I took massive imperfect action to prune off the character defects in me and did everything I could grow the fruits of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control), and I CONTINUE to take lots of daily action to keep pruning and to keep growing in the Lord.
It might seem hard to believe, but the first five years of growing pains as a Christian felt more challenging for me than the nightmare of ongoing sexual abuse by my stepfather. IT FELT WAY MORE CHALLENGING (because as a child, I dissociated in order to survive the abuse, and as a Christian adult, I consciously stopped dissociating and stayed away from things that could numb my pain, so NOW I FEEL ALL MY FEELINGS).
However, ENDURING THIS RACE HAS BEEN MORE THAN WORTH IT. This CHALLENGE OF CRUCIFYING MY FLESH AND BATTLING EVIL FORCES ON A DAILY BASIS has led to the current rewards I am enjoying with experiencing the abundant love I am getting from God, myself, my husband, my furry and feathery children, my family and friends, mentors and clients. My life now feels better than a dream. The battle is worth fighting for on a daily basis.
The devil has tried to kill my spirit. The devil has tried to take my life. The devil has tried to stop me from speaking. The devil has tried to stop me from dancing. The devil has tried to isolate me from all my friends and family and mentors. The devil has tried to keep me in poverty. The devil has tried to tell me I am unworthy.
But thanks be to God. I know now that the devil is a liar and I am PRICELESS, and so are YOU.
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
Psalm 139:13-14
I WAS CREATED ON PURPOSE FOR A PURPOSE. AND SO WERE YOU. You have special gifts and talents that God specifically gave to YOU to serve Him and other people to bring glory to God!
For we are God's masterpiece, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Ephesians 2:10
My mission is to be the SALT OF THE EARTH AND THE LIGHT OF THE WORLD to inspire droves of lost souls to have faith and ETERNAL SPIRITUAL LIFE with Jesus Christ, and also to inspire current Christians to boldly make MOST OF THEIR EARTHLY LIFE by glorifying God and serving others with their God-given gifts to inspire souls into God's kingdom.
It doesn't matter what you have gone through in your past. God can deliver you from it and heal you and deliver you from ALL OF IT. Yes, it is quite challenging at times to go through the ongoing healing and sanctification process, but it is absolutely worth it. You will get to live a life better than your dreams! Hallelujah!!! ALL GLORY TO GOD!!!
If you are interested in having faith in Jesus Christ or strengthening your faith in Jesus Christ, please feel free to email [email protected]
It still blows my mind how much LOVE JOY AND PEACE I get to experience every single day of my life now.
And I give God all the glory for the OVERFLOW OF LOVE that is in my life.
I get abundant love in my life from God; He is my number One. I get abundant love from myself. Hallelujah! I no longer feel guilty for making my needs and desires a priority now. I get abundant love from my sweet husband. We already celebrated our 4 year anniversary on October 11th, and yet he is insisting on celebrating for two full weeks (and I am happy to receive that)! I get abundant love from our 5 children; and by five children, I mean our two cats and three chickens of course! I get to have abundant love from my precious family and amazing friends; I usually pray with at least 5 girlfriends a day! I get abundant love from my mentors and teachers; my teachers often tell me I am very teachable and all are so impressed with my willingness to do whatever it takes to get better. And last but certainly not the least, I get love from my grateful clients and students. I cannot begin to tell you how rewarding it is to witness my clients through my life coaching business transform before my very eyes and go from feeling hopeless to empowered.
A couple more fun facts:
I get to live in a cute country home on a beautiful 40-acre ranch in California with my husband and our animal children. And I have to tell you, I get to experience the most glorious sunsets in the evenings!
I get invited to speak and share my testimonial and dance worship dance at churches and Christian events all around the country.
I get to spend several hours a day immersed in personal development, diligently reflecting on and correcting and growing my character. I strive to be the best steward I can be of the relationships, health, money, brain, and heart God has blessed me with. I believe in being rigorously honest on where I fall short and also by speaking life over myself and expecting miracles to happen. And they do, miracles happen very often in my life. In fact, I see my whole life as a miracle.
When people get to know me, they are often surprised to find out that I experienced 8 years of molestation and rape as a child by a serial pedophile - my stepfather, who managed to kick my mother out of our house so he had full reign to do whatever he wanted with me. He often exploited my gift of dance to satisfy his lust hunger. My soul died a little more each time I had to perform another sensual dance as he threatened me to do for him as a child.
When people get to know me, they are often surprised to find out that when I ran away from home at age 19, I got deeply involved in New Age practices, including Reiki healing. As I became more skilled at Reiki, I often could feel other people's pain in their bodies even if they were on the other side of the globe. I became quite an impressive "healer" in my own eyes and became prideful about my abilities. I believed I was a goddess and even lived at a yoga ashram for a couple of years.
When people get to know me, they are often surprised that I intentionally tried to talk Christians out of their faith during my Reiki sessions on them. I would passionately tell them they didn't need Jesus. They didn't need a crutch. They could become their own healer. I used to think Christians were the weakest and stupidest people on the planet. I did not believe in God. I mocked God. I wanted to be my own god. I had so much pride.
The biggest turning point in my life was in the Winter of 2017 when I was living at the yoga ashram. Back then, I did not take naps. I was a vegan ballerina and had a ton of energy. I felt happy in a new relationship I was in with a boyfriend. I was happy I was growing a YouTube channel with about 8,000 subscribers where I taught people how to be "Happy, Healthy, and Free with BoYee" My life felt perfect to me back then! I definitely did not feel depressed.
Then seemingly out of nowhere, I was attacked demonically around the same time in the afternoon for 3 consecutive days.
This evil spirit was telling me internally to kill myself. I was alarmed because I found myself truly considering to commit suicide, which was not like me. I didn't feel like I had it in me to stay alive for my family, friends, boyfriend, or YouTuber viewers. I didn't know what to do.
The first day I was attacked and felt paralyzed in my bed, I knew immediately that my "Reiki powers" had no authority over that evil presence. I KNEW deep in my heart that if I were to die, I would go straight to hell.
The next day, I felt compelled to grab an old 12-step book I had in my closet and put it on my nightstand. I stopped reading that book many years ago because I couldn't do Step 2, so I had dropped out of that program. Then I was demonically attacked and paralyzed again just like the day before. When I was able to move again, I opened that thick book to a random page, and to my disbelief, I happened to open the book to Step 2, believe in God, the Step I refused to take in the past. I slammed the book closed and said to myself, "No, I do NOT believe in God!"
The third day, I was attacked and paralyzed again. The fear of dying and going to hell was unbearable. This time, I just couldn't take it anymore. I thought to myself, "I've already tried praying to Krishna, Buddha, the Mother, Sri Aurobindo, Quan Yin, Ganesha, the Universe, the rocks, the moon, the stars, who's left?" Then I realized that I had never tried Jesus. I felt embarrassed because I thought, "Well I don't even know how to pray to Jesus." So I just muttered His name, "Jesus" and INSTANTLY the demon vanished, I felt overwhelming peace flood through my body and the room and I KNEW JESUS WAS REAL.
My first thought was, "I must get baptized!" Then my next thought was, "Oh my goodness, I think I am the ONLY new ager in the world who came to Jesus Christ." Little did I know at the time, New Agers have been coming to Christ in droves. I definitely was not the only one. I didn't care either way. I knew Jesus was real in that moment and I was given the gift of faith.
I was a naive infant Christian . I innocently believed, "Welp, life should be pretty easy from this point forward since I have God now." Boy oh boy, was I wrong! I got married a little less than a year after becoming a Christian. I didn't realize getting married would bring up all my unresolved childhood trauma. I got married to a wonderful man, but I didn't know how to be a wonderful wife. So with my own hands, I nearly destroyed my marriage by being disrespectful, nagging, controlling, and condemning beyond measure.
But through tuning into the will of God and my willingness to change my behavior; I got under the wings of wise counsel and I took massive imperfect action to prune off the character defects in me and did everything I could grow the fruits of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control), and I CONTINUE to take lots of daily action to keep pruning and to keep growing in the Lord.
It might seem hard to believe, but the first five years of growing pains as a Christian felt more challenging for me than the nightmare of ongoing sexual abuse by my stepfather. IT FELT WAY MORE CHALLENGING (because as a child, I dissociated in order to survive the abuse, and as a Christian adult, I consciously stopped dissociating and stayed away from things that could numb my pain, so NOW I FEEL ALL MY FEELINGS).
However, ENDURING THIS RACE HAS BEEN MORE THAN WORTH IT. This CHALLENGE OF CRUCIFYING MY FLESH AND BATTLING EVIL FORCES ON A DAILY BASIS has led to the current rewards I am enjoying with experiencing the abundant love I am getting from God, myself, my husband, my furry and feathery children, my family and friends, mentors and clients. My life now feels better than a dream. The battle is worth fighting for on a daily basis.
The devil has tried to kill my spirit. The devil has tried to take my life. The devil has tried to stop me from speaking. The devil has tried to stop me from dancing. The devil has tried to isolate me from all my friends and family and mentors. The devil has tried to keep me in poverty. The devil has tried to tell me I am unworthy.
But thanks be to God. I know now that the devil is a liar and I am PRICELESS, and so are YOU.
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
Psalm 139:13-14
I WAS CREATED ON PURPOSE FOR A PURPOSE. AND SO WERE YOU. You have special gifts and talents that God specifically gave to YOU to serve Him and other people to bring glory to God!
For we are God's masterpiece, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Ephesians 2:10
My mission is to be the SALT OF THE EARTH AND THE LIGHT OF THE WORLD to inspire droves of lost souls to have faith and ETERNAL SPIRITUAL LIFE with Jesus Christ, and also to inspire current Christians to boldly make MOST OF THEIR EARTHLY LIFE by glorifying God and serving others with their God-given gifts to inspire souls into God's kingdom.
It doesn't matter what you have gone through in your past. God can deliver you from it and heal you and deliver you from ALL OF IT. Yes, it is quite challenging at times to go through the ongoing healing and sanctification process, but it is absolutely worth it. You will get to live a life better than your dreams! Hallelujah!!! ALL GLORY TO GOD!!!
If you are interested in having faith in Jesus Christ or strengthening your faith in Jesus Christ, please feel free to email [email protected]
